3 posts from February 2008

Ok its just gone 1am and I'm kinda afraid to sleep. Lately I've been having these....not nightmares, just disturbing dreams.

I havn't spoken to Tilda for nearly two months now. I know I've let her go, but that doesn't mean she doesnt still cross my mind from time to time. The music I hear, the people I meet, the places I go. They all somehow remind me of the time she visited Galway.

The other night I dreamt that she had come back to see me. I was so thrilled because she said she wanted me. And we talked what seemed like for hours. Gradually though it seem to slip away. At the end of the dream I see her getting on a train, and I'm invisible. I'm just staring at the machine taking her away forever....

Then I woke up at about 7am and cried my heart out. I just hate when dreams tease me like that. 

What should I read from this though?

She impacted my life like no other girl before, and yet almost as swiftly she captured me, she was swept away.

I guess I need this experience, and in time it will make me stronger.

I love Alicia now, but typically I don't know if she feels the same for me. 

It’s been a while since I updated my blog so here goes.

Alicia:
Apparently, it seems, we are going out officially now. Although I haven’t got a proper chance to ask her if that’s the case. We seem to spend every free hour together and at the moment its getting a bit tiresome. Don’t get me wrong, I adore her, but these mixed messages I’m getting aren’t helping at all.

A certain Swede:
Yes I know I said I would never mention her again but the latest I hear (from her friend at least) is that she has now ditched her Canadian bozo of a fiancée and instead found herself a new fella just outside Västerås.
I’m glad she’s found someone else at last. I guess I can take from this that its over and I can move away and get on with my life full tilt.

College:
It’s not going great so far this year. I’ve been losing motivation in some of the new classes I have to attend. However having Alicia there is a great help. I just need to find the rhythm I had last semester. That will probably require me to get my notes in order and get my timetable fully fixed up.

Rag Week:
Well at the time of writing, Rag Week 2008 is officially over. I’ll write a blog about that later.

I was reading the paper today and i came across a page about the upcoming Eurovision Song Contest in May! It showed the top six contestants who could go forward and represent Ireland this year